‘Yes;' said Carton; pausing again; and answering over his shoulder。
‘You speak like a Frenchman。'
‘I am an old student here。'
‘Aha; a perfect Frenchman! Good night; Englishman。'
‘Good night; citizen。'
‘But go and see that droll dog;' the little man persisted; calling after him。 ‘And take a pipe with you!'
Sydney had not gone far out of sight; when he stopped in the middle of the street under a glimmering lamp; and wrote with his pencil on a scrap of paper。 Then; traversing with the decided step of one who remembered the way well; several dark and dirty streets……much dirtier than usual; for the best public thoroughfares remained uncleansed in those times of terror……he stopped at a chemist's shop; which the owner was closing with his own hands。 A small; dim; crooked shop; kept in a tortuous; up…hill thoroughfares; by a small; dim; crooked man。
Giving this citizen; too; good night; as he confronted him at his counter; he laid the scrap of paper before him。 ‘Whew!' the chemist whistled softly; as he read it。 ‘Hi! hi! hi!'
Sydney Carton took no heed; and the chemist said:
‘For you; citizen?'
‘For me。
‘You will be careful to keep them separate; citizen? You know the consequences of mixing them?'
‘Perfectly。'
Certain small packets were made and given to him。 He put them; one by one; in the breast of his inner coat; counted out the money for them; and deliberately left the shop。 ‘There is nothing more to do;' said he; glancing upward at the moon; ‘until to…morrow。 I can't sleep。
It was not a reckless manner; the manner in which he said these words aloud under the fast…sailing clouds; nor was it more expressive of negligence than defiance。 It was the settled manner of a tired man; who had wandered and struggled and got lost; but who at length struck into his road and saw its end。
Long ago; when he had been famous among his earliest petitors as a youth of great promise; he had followed his father to the grave。 His mother had died; years before。 These solemn words; which had been read at his father's grave; arose in his mind as he went down the dark streets; among the heavy shadows; with the moon and the clouds sailing on high above him。 ‘I am the resurrection and the life; saith the Lord: he that believeth in me; though he were dead; yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me; shall never die。'
In a city dominated by the axe; alone at night; with natural sorrow rising in him for the sixty…three who had been that day put to death; and for to…morrow's victims then awaiting their doom in the prisons; and still of to…morrow's and tomorrow's; the chain of association that brought the words home; like a rusty old ship's anchor from the deep; might have been easily found。 He did not seek it; but repeated them and went on。
With a solemn interest in the lighted windows where the people were going to rest; forgetful through a few calm hours of the horrors surrounding them; in the towers of the churches; where no prayers were said; for the popular revulsion had even travelled that length of self…destruction from years of priestly impostors; plunderers; and profligates; in the distant burial…places; reserved; as they wrote upon the gates; for Eternal Sleep; in the abounding gaols; and in the streets along which the sixties rolled to a death which had bee so mon and material; that no sorrowful story of a haunting Spirit ever arose among the people out of all the working of the Guillotine; with a solemn interest in the whole life and death of the city settling down to its short nightly pause in fury; Sydney Carton crossed the Seine again for the lighter streets。
Few coaches were abroad; for riders in coaches were liable to lie suspected; and gentility hid its head in red nightcaps; and put on heavy shoes; and trudged。 But; the theatres were all well filled; and the people poured cheerfully out as he passed; and went chatting home。 At one of the theatre doors; there was a little girl with a mother; looking for a way across the street through the mud。 He carried the child over; and before the timid arm was loosed from his neck asked her for a kiss。
‘I am the resurrection and the life; saith the Lord: he that believeth in me; though he were dead; yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me; shall never die。'
Now; that the streets were quiet; and the night wore on; the words were in the echoes of his feet; and were in the air。 Perfectly calm and steady; he sometimes repeated them to himself as he walked; but; he heard them always。
The night wore out; and; as he stood upon the bridge listening to the water as it splashed the river…walls of the Island of Paris; where the picturesque confusion of houses and cathedral shone bright in the light of the moon; the day came coldly; looking like a dead face out of the sky。 Then; the night; with the moon and the stars; turned pale and died; and for a little while it seemed as if Creation were delivered over to Death's dominion。
But; the glorious sun; rising; seemed to strike those words; that burden of the night; straight and warm to his heart in its long bright rays。 And looking along them; with reverently shaded eyes; a bridge of light appeared to span the air between him and the sun; while the river sparkled under it。
The strong tide; so swift; so deep; and certain; was like a congenial friend; in the morning stillness。 He walked by the stream; far from the houses; and in the light arid warmth of the sun fell asleep on the bank。 When he awoke and was afoot again; he lingered there yet a little longer; watching an eddy that turned and turned purposeless; until the stream absorbed it; and carried it on to the sea。……‘Like me!'
A trading…boat; with a sail of the softened colour of a dead leaf; then glided into his view; floated by him; and died away。 As its silent track in the water disappeared; the prayer that had broken up out of his heart for a merciful consideration of all his poor blindnesses and errors; ended in the words; ‘I am the resurrection and the life。'
Mr。 Lorry was already out when he got back; and it was easy to surmise where the good old man was gone。 Sydney Carton drank nothing but a little coffee; ate some bread; and; having washed and changed to refresh himself; went out to the place of trial。
The court was all astir and a…buzz; when the black sheep……whom many fell away from in dread……pressed him into an obscure corner among the crowd。 Mr。 Lorry was there; and Doctor Manette was there。 She was there; sitting beside her father。
When her husband was brought in; she turned a look upon him; so sustaining; so encouraging; so full of admiring love and pitying tenderness; yet so courageous for his sake; that it called the healthy blood into his face; brightened his glance; and animated his heart。 If there had been any eyes to notice the influence of her look; on Sydney Carton; it would have been seen to be the same influence exactly。
Before that unjust Tribunal; there was little or no order of procedure; ensuring to any accused person any reasonable hearing。 There could have been no such Revolution; if all laws; forms; and ceremonies; had not first been so monstrously abused; that the suicidal vengeance of the Revolution was to scatter them al